Dear Future (___)
Dear Future (____)…
God gave me you for the ups and the downs.
Through all the smiles and the frowns.
I'll still be here in all your baby weight, oh yes I mean the pounds. But baby wait,
I couldn't give my heart to anyone else because with others it just drowns.
Besides, I'll enjoy you in every size,
I mean, you have to add flour to cake right in order for it to rise.
Speaking of flower, you're the type that’s oh so mighty and rare.
The devil tried to pick you, but God looked at him and said "You wouldn't even dare"
I know God wants you more than I do but I'm sure there's a way to share.
He has your heart now but I know I'll find you someday, somewhere.
When that day comes I'll present to you, my love and my loyalty.
Then ask your Heavenly Father for permission to lawfully wed His royalty.
My dear Princess, the King said not yet, but best believe I'm not giving up.
That insecure smile of yours gave my sudden downfall reassurance to keep lifting up.
To the top that is because that's exactly where you're headed.
Nothing will weigh you down except for that crown if you let it.
A soon to be Heavenly courtship, not to be confused with earthly dating.
I tend to be impatient with others but baby for you I don't mind waiting.
I have a special place for you in my heart and I can't wait until you get here.
I hate it when you're far away but I also get nervous whenever you're near.
Like truthfully babe, you give me dragonflies because well butterflies are way too girly.
I know that's a bit of a stretch but the wingspan of our love could never be worldly.
It's a Love that reaches from the honeymoon into maternity.
And even when life ends in the natural, I'll still love you through eternity.
I believe we shared the same air once because when you inhaled I felt my oxygen depart.
Then when you exhaled that same breath I felt it return into my heart.
That little taste of you had me drunker than a fine wine.
I think you recognized my drunkenness cause you placed your hand in mine.
Your caress was the melody that only Angels could play on a harp.
A minor way to be flat is only if you see sharp.
In my head I thanked you in advance, I was so anxious to call you mine.
You asked me, "how are you?" I whispered "marry me", but aloud responded "I'm fine"
I admired you for so long, you have the perfect everything, I'm talking nails, knee caps and even your front tooth.
I didn't know where to begin our conversation so I just started with the truth.
I told you I plan to undress your past and make love to all your flaws.
Your future husband was once a dog but now he's wiped off his paws.
I'm nowhere near perfect so be patient with me please.
Lay down with me slowly, I may still have a few fleas.
She encouraged me every night and said everything will be okay.
I believed her each time, especially when she reminded me on her wedding day.
Tears escaped my face softly like your heels on that aisle you came down.
I was feeling myself in that Tux, until I seen how beautiful you were in that wedding gown.
I watched everyone's face light up once you entered that crowded room.
And I'm standing at the altar but I'm actually not the groom.
Yeah I'm watching you marry Him and I'm wishing that it could be us.
But before you can marry me, you must first be the bride of Jesus.
My Lord said, she's experienced so much hurt, so her trust you must earn.
He then stepped aside and said, "My son, it is your turn".
So Dear Future (____)
Yes, I'm willing to wait and accept you as a woman who sins.
So long as you promise me, that eventually you will become a wife who wins.
I promise to love you through pain and strife, with this vow I now say "I do".
Crazy thing is you were my wife all along,
Sincerely, with Love (Dear. Future. You).
Proverbs 18:22 ☝🏾
Friend to me, enemy or eternity?
So there’s this woman right. For privacy purposes let’s call her LaTanya or “Tanya” for short. She’s not just like any other woman though, she’s special. Could be due to the fact that she’s an extremely anointed woman of God. Possibly because she’s an incredibly attractive woman. Potentially she’s special because of her writing gift and the way she tells stories or brings words in writing to life. May even be due to the fact that she has a smile that lights up the room, although this can sometimes be a distraction as I get lost in her eyes and smile which tends to interfere with me listening to her when she speaks. I was going to tell you why she’s so special but then I changed my mind so feel free to let your mind roam instead. I will tell you how we met though.
I was back home this summer for the break and attending church with my mother. While visiting this church one Sunday I was seated next to a group of people who looked to be around my age, the first thing I noticed in this group were two girls that looked quite a bit alike, almost like sisters or cousins (They turned out to be twins, and one of these twins is Tanya). This was an interesting point in my life. I am on a spiritual journey and at this time I was still on a roller coaster of ups and downs. I was currently trying to get over Kenjahte and move past the break up with Ebony. So I wasn’t looking for a relationship at this moment; I actually wanted to be single and just learn more about myself and God. Being that I was still struggling to escape the world I was more focused on the beauty of the women in the church than the Word of God. Tanya’s twin sister is going to be named Abigail in this post and we’ll shorten that to Abby. As I was lead by my flesh and thoughts from the enemy, I began to stare at and lust after Abby. I wanted her in a way that a Christian man shouldn’t seek to know a Christian woman. I knew that my flesh and spirit would battle for how to pursue her. I prayed about it, my spirit conquered and I didn’t approach her at all. A few Sunday’s later, I was helping out the youth children and this is the first time Tanya blessed me with her presence and sweet voice. She was just asking if her nephew was involved with what I was working on for the youth group. Regardless though, the sound of her voice had me smiling uncontrollably. We only exchanged about two sentences each before I walked away from being so nervous. Then after this I began messaging her on Facebook messenger. We talked for a few days on there before we met up in person. I was at Barnes & Noble reading some really nice books I found a previous time and she came to join me. We talked for over two hours and once the bookstore closed, we decided to continue talking so we went to Steak ‘n Shake until about 1 am. As much guilt as I felt for keeping her out so late, I truly enjoyed “Our first date” in Christ of course because it was time well spent unlike any other time I’ve spent with a female my age before.
As of today you know we’ve gotten waaaayyyyy closer and I really like the way our conversations unravel and how happy I am at the sound of your voice. I’m not completely sure what the Lord has ordained in our lives as far as a relationship goes but I’m so thankful God allowed you to walk into my life. You know who you are, may God continue to bless you and I’ll talk to you soon. Have a blessed day beautiful! I wish I knew you earlier but I pray you remain in my life for eternity, if God permits.
iamlakai 